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Kadang kadang di hati tak terluah.. Kata kata tak dpt di susun.. 

Telan lah ia n ada ketika nya menganggu emosi yg kdg2 ter usik dek sensitif nya wanita...   

Gembira, haru, sayu, gundah.. Air mata juga saksinya.. 

Wanita, emosi dan KEHAMILAN.. (mungkin)

#alhamdulillah :) 

7 days

All about sweet..
'Sweet blood'org kata.
being sweet the whole week.
Craving for sweet things.
This is sweet. Kan?

;)

I'll always love u more than u do.

Dear future husband..

This is the reasons why i love u more..

First u asked...something like..
'Aku nak ko jadi permaisuri hidup aku..Aku serius pasal 8hb 3 tu..'

And then followed by a ring with a rose by the beach at the sunset...

And then.. U became my driver..
Tlg hantar. Tlg amek. Amek barang sana. Amek brg sini.

Everytime i merajuk.. Even u tak tau pujuk.. U'll always try.. Even kdg2 wat u said lagi memburukkan keadaan.. But still.. In the end.. U tetap mengalah.
Smpai satu hari tu.. Awk xmgalah.. N diam kan diri. Rasa nya tak smpai stgh hari pn.. Dah wat sy risau. Ok time sy mnangis.. Sbb.. Herm.. Sedeyh la kan? *mengada*

Tp pastu,. Sy dpt starbucks n secret's cake! Yeay~!

Owh n first time sy rasa buger bakar pn sbb awak tlg wat delivery... Best kan sy?

Sy? Apa sy wat ntuk awk? Hermm.. Baju hantaran tunang pn umi yg blikan. Cincin kawen awk pn umi sy yg bli kan.
Saya? Stakat skali skala blanja awk makan..
Nak hantar mknn? Hermm.. Xdapek.
Bg bunga? Xpernahh!
Heyy.. Even birthday gift pn.. Sy kasi coklat kecik je! Pffft..

Now can u see?

Why i always said i love u more than u do..

I'd done nothing to make u love me more..
But what u did make me completrly fall in love with u.. more n more each day..

Herm.. Bet one of my tugas as ur wife later had been ticked.
[ / ] love the husband sepenuh hati.

InsyAllah...!

14 days

14 days to go..
And 'i'm yours'.

Chewwah~ ;)

Xsangka. He used to b one of my guy bestfren..
And now..
In 14 days.. He'll b my only guy bestfriend.
Till death do us apart. InsyaAllah.. :)

Being around u is one of my fav days.

23 days.

For me..,
Your happiness comes first.

Thats how i'll continue my role as your wife later..

23 days to go. ;)

Marriage.

Lets practice this A to Z marriage.

A - Absolutely adore each other
B - Be best friends
C - Compromise
D - Discover new things together
E - Encourage each other
F - Forgive and forget
G - Gaze into each others eyes
H - Hold hands and hug a lot
I - Inspire and intrigue each other
J - Joke and laugh and have fun
K - Kiss Kiss Kiss ;-)
L - Love with all your hearts
M - Marvel at each other's talents
N - Nuture each other's soul
O - Overcome problem together
P - Play games
Q - Quiet each other's fears
R - Remember the little things
S - Say "I love you" everyday
T - Take time for tenderness
U - Understand and care deeply
V - Value everything you share
W - Wish on stars together
X - X-press your true feelings
Y - Yearn for each other's touch
Z - Zzzzz in each other's arm

27 days.

27 hari lagi ntuk bergelar raja sehari.
And why i'm not that excited for the majlis?
Tak fikir sgt psl majlis. Majlis sehari yg menelan belanja berjuta2. Aish. Berjuta ke? Ntuk org lain maybe., for me.. I'll keep it simple..
Ntah la.. Tak fikir sgt ntuk majlis. Byk fikir utk kehidupan selepas majlis. Cuak. Gementar.
Nak jadi isteri mithali bkn snang. Bkn stakat isteri.. Menantu, adik ipar.. Satu keluarga yg baru.. Kehidupan yg baru. Dah tak leh balik keje asek ngadap hp je.. Dah tak leh weekend asek barin ngadap laptop smpai makan pn malas..
Workload dah double. Basuh baju double, lipat baju double.
Makan xleh fikir perut sndiri da..
Balik kg, nak g jenjalan.. Dah xleh sesuka hati da..
Merajuk dah takleh lebih2.. Kata suami tetap kena ikut..

Ok skrg dah mula berjinak2 dgn tudung di rumah. Kalo sbelum ni.. Kt rumah.. Dgn spupu2 yg mcm adik bradik tu.. Mmg agak janggal ntuk pakai tudung. Dr kecik membesar sama2.. Da rasa mcm siblings.. Tp.. Tu la.. Spupu tetap spupu. Ok.. Tak salah berubah ntuk jd lebih baik. Insya'Allah..

See.. byk menda yg akan berubah dgn sndiri nya nnt..
So.. Ntuk 27 hari yg tggal ni.. Kita nikmati dlu khidupan solo! Hoyeaah~~! Eh?
Ngeeee..

^___^

Ada sedikit excited.. Tp bukan psl majlis.. Tp pasal a whole new family.
Akan dpt ayah, akan ada umi satu lagi.. Akan ada kakak... Hermm.. I wonder how would it be.. But.. I am excited.
Cabaran dan pengalaman baru!! :))

Oh dan juga excited.. To travel..! Yeayy!! :D

Dear future husband #11

Dear future husband,

If i asked u.. ' is ur ex pretty?'

I wish u would reply with..
'She used to, but to me, u r prettier bcoz my eyes fav view is u which never failed makes me fall all over u'

I wish! But that's too sweeeet!
So.. If u said so,. I'm going to manipulate ur answer..and said,

'Ni ayat manis.. Smua laki mulut manis ni slalunya playboy.. neh.. Kt sape lagi ni ckp cmni neh...?'

Ngehehhee..

Wutever ur answer is,

I know, u did a hard work preparing our wedding,
N i dont think its a joke.

I'm just being ridiculous comparing myself with ur ex.

A lil bit insecure mayb.

Sorry n thanks.

love,
Your wife to be.
<3

I'm no good

Such a heartbreaking 'statement which is actually a watsapp status..

Someone doesnt happy with the current situation?

Current situation do include me. Anyone who read that (who know bout me) would conclude i'm one of the reason.

Even me myself wondering..

Is it true, is that someone really unhappy being with me...

Maybe i'm just assuming, but....

That makes me down.

*Ur statement never once showed that u r happy.*
Maybe u not.

Bestfriend.

Sahabat.. Untuk selamanya.,
Selama lama nya..

6 weeks to go.

and u'll b my bestest bestfriend!

Forever. Insya'Allah...
:)

Tudung

Tudung skrg mcm2... Tgk org pakai sibuk nak pakai jugak.
Tak nafikan.. Mmg terliur.. Perempuannn biasa laa~ asal nmpk cantek mula laa nk cuba gak.

Org mekap aku nak gak mekap. Pakai lipstick merah sket.. Kena tegur.. Xcantik..bibir ku tak semongel itu.. Huwaa.. (Mongel? Ke munggil? Btul ke eja camneh! ) haha.

Ok tu biar laa. Mayb mmg xsesuai la..

Tp ni.. Ni.. Nk pakai selendang acane..
Si dia tak suka tudung awning or shawl. So.. Shuld say gudbye to both la kot,.
Ok i did. Dah said gudbye daa~
Da abehs da stok.. Tggal bbrapa kerat yg mcm syg sket.
Tudung awning tu ok la. Da leh lepas. Tggal satu dua je ntuk snang sarung kalo2 org dtg..
Tp.....
Kalo shawl..Merata2 org pakai shawl.. Tgk org pakai,
teringat kenangan lama bersama shawl.
Aku rinduuuu *drama queen*

Yea la.. Skang lak mcm2 pesen. Halfmoon la.. Syria laa.. Cantek2.
N i do love those shawl yg byk2 kaler tu. Bila belit dia jadi cam beralun2 sket.. (Tgk org pakai laa)

N shawl2 yg bbunga2 byk2 kaler.. N kain chiffon tuuu~ kain chiffon mcm best. Lembut n terletak..
Terbyg2 kt jalan tar.shawl yg bermacam2 kaler n jenis terbuai2 oleh angin.. Huhu..

Ohhh.. N tgk instagram yg jual2 tudung. Dangg.. Byk tdung selendang yg mengugat keimanan.

Calaqisya nye mcm cantek.. Tgk along dy pakai.. Cam staill gitu..

Eh eh. Dah2..ckup2.
Awak tak cantik pn pakai selendang. Xyah nak berangan.. T_T

Okeh laa.. Nk g jalan tar.. Nk cr square hijab yg bunga2 n mcm2 corak. (Tp ada ke? Mcm xbykk je.. Huhuhu)

Ainul boleh! Lupakan selendang. *seketika*
Kut2 laa nnt kurus muka da panjang balik.. Mungkin. *mungkin* laa dpt menawan hati si dia ntuk melihat aku pakai shawl. Eheh. (Angan2 mat jenin)

Takpe la. Bawal pn bawal la. Pasneh aku try pakai bawal cam ala2 ainan tasneem tu ke.. Takpn najwa latif ke.. Haa.. Nak sgt kannn.. Errrr.. Praktis2!

Chaiyok!

Ok,
Tdo la. Xyh pk pasal muka yg makin membulat. Hukss. -_-'

Goodnight bulat!

Dear future husband #10

Oh . 10 already?

Think i shuld stop this future husband thingy. Shuld i?

Neway,

Dear future husband,

Once in a while lets slow dance together.

I would like to experience dancing slowly to a romantic love song with someone i love...Emm. I mean, with you. ;)

No, i'm no good in dancing either. Lets just try. Cincai2 pn ok la~
Will you?
Please~~~

Thanks.
;)
Xoxo,
Your future wife.

Dear future husband #9

Kehadapan bakal suami,

Saya bukan seorang yg sopan santun, jauh sekali lemah lembut. Terlebih cuai. Terlebih kelam kabut.

Tutup pintu kdg2 terlebih kuat,
Berjalan kdg2 terlebih hentak,
Ketawa kdg2 terlebih nyaring,
Tido kdg2 terlebih waktu,
Makan pun terlebih banyak..
Suara kdg2 terlebih volume.
Merajuk kdg2 terlebih over..
Mengemas kdg2 terlebih malas..

Banyak yg terlebih drpd kadang2..

Please bear with my weaknesses.

Apapun, i'm not that hard to handle. Trust me.. I'll be easy on u.
Just..please.. Guide me to b a better a person.

Salam sayang,
Bakal isteri.

Dear future husband #8

I miss you! Damn much.
Yes. U. ;)

Love,
Your Future wife.

Dear future husband #7

Dear future husband,

Its hard waking up early in the morning. But the idea of having breakfast do move me from my bed.

Yes. I love breakfast.

Even with just a mug of coffee and an oatmeal cracker. Tht still count as a breakfast for me.

Lets dont miss breakfast. Coz i just love em.

I'll try to never miss prepared u breakfast in the future. I'll try! Not a promise but i'll try. A mug of coffee still count as breakfast yaw! :D

Love,
Your future wife.

Dear future husband #6

Dear future husband,

Yeah, now i keep playing the boys like girls-your everything.

Too sweet and i love those line..;

"We got a story
But I'm about to change the ending
You're perfect for me
More than just a friend so we can just stop pretending now
Gotta let you know somehow"

"Be your forever, Be your fling
Baby, I will be your everything"

Yes.. Be my shelter, be my storm, let me shiver then keep me warm. In whatever weather..be mine.

Yes.. please...
Be my everything. ~~!
Thanks! <3

Love,
Your future wife.

Dear future husband #5

Dear future husband,

I love spicy food, but u dont.
U love aircond, but i dont.

Too many to jot down what i do love but u dont.

Cinta gila;

'Kita berdua jauh berbeza..
Langit dan bumi tapi serasi.
Ku cintai mu, kau cintai ku..
Itu saja yg perlu kau dan ku tau..'

Auwwwh.
Yes, despite all those differences.. I do still love u. Always..

Sometimes, the differences make love more fun.

I promise, i will adapt myself with yours, so please. once in a while, do tolerate with my preferablity.

Love,
Your future wife.

Dear future husband #4

Dear future husband,

One day.. When we have kids, lets agree on not spoiling our kids with ipads or tabs. Bebudak skrg mcm terlalu pasif bila menghadap those things je. Ok maybe not totally banned those into their life.. just.. maybe limit and put some restriction. maybe?
and..
Lets go out and play together. Like.. U, me and them..together. Something like.. Cycling, swimming, playing badminton, flying kite or just some leisure walk at the park. Now, can u pictured it? Isnt that nice? Yeah, perlu korbankan byk masa.. But at least, once a week..wouldnt it be worth it..? Right?

Owh, but xbox is still acceptable. Still perlu bergerak2 kan? And, i want that too~ hik hik. ;)

Love,
Your future wife.

Dear future husband #3

Dear future husband,

You know, i do hate my past. Thinking of that, makes me feel more inferior to u.

But, knowing that u knew it, and accept it before i culd explain it, i'm amaze. Dan bersyukur sgt.. Its u. (See how many times did i repeat, i'm glad i choose u. Yes, i do!) aaa.. U dont know how relieved i am.. Wlpn rs malu.( Of coz laa. That one of my dark side.. ) But realized that u still can laugh at me( in a good way ).. I do rasa sgtttt lega.

You are amazing. No, no one perfect.. But for me.. U r just enough. Enough to fill up my days for the rest of my life~ insya'Allah,,,

Thanks for putting up with me. I know i'd gave u a hard time. And bet, i will give u more in the years to come. Hehe..

So just keep being patient with me. Will u? ;)

After all.. U r my superhero.. Aah, n going to be.. my own personal superhero.
Yeah i'm going to hav one soooon! *thinking of that makes me excited! *joget2*

Thanks.

Love,
Future wife,

I hate my past

Yes i do! Dang., i googled my own name.. And pufff.. Its all over the page. Twitter is forgivable. but Youtube? Flickr? Shhhht. N me lupa all those passwd. I hate me! Why did i upload those kind of stuff?
Mcm geli je bila tgk balik. Yuck!
Emm cinta monyet. Emm,, one's in love mmg agak tak waras kot.

Haih,, but.. Lets bygone b bygone.. Tp cmneeee nak tarik balik those video dat i made? Haih..

Haa jgn fikir bukan2 please.. Bukan video lucah. Cuma alaa video yg guna movie maker, byk2 gmbr with songs tu. Ada laa satu video cinta monyet time high school dlu. Aish.. Sgt xmatang. Benciiii~

And ada certain gmbr yg herm.. I di hate by looking at it. Benci gila gmbr diri sndiri gitu. Baju lengan pn xckup,.Haihhh...nk delete!!!!!! Hate!!

Em apa pn, pgalaman mematangkan kita.. Moga menjadi yg lbih baik selari dgn peningkatan umur. Insya'Allah.. Sbulan lebih lagi.. Genap 25 taun. Huhuhu... Wish u culd b someone better.

* yes.Kt bwh ni is one of the pict that i found at flickr. Tp bgus gak.. Laptop kna curik hilang smua gmbr.. Ada laa gak yg leh retrieve balik dkt sini.. Eheh*

Dear future husband #2

Dear future husband,

I may not good in cooking,
But i'll learn.
I'll learn to make ur most fav meal. and..
I'll learn from your mom coz the best meal always come from our mom's cook. Isnt it?

Well, be prepared.. As u gonna have a personal master chef! Oh a cute one! hohoohh, layankan je laaa eh.. ;)

Dear future husband #1

Dear future husband,

Lets travel the world together..?
But.. Can we listen to my playlist..
if i can tolerate ur choice of song.. Why cant u? So, please consider my choice..

Please?

Regards,
Future wife.

Love is..

Unfair...

I dont know what i did wrong.

And i hate it when u said its ok somehow u doesnt looks thay okay. And it doesnt feels that way..
No, u r not. N i dont know what i did wrong,

Hermm..

' i will never be good enough for you'

a new year. new me. new life.

and a new 'diary' i culd say. said gudbye to the glasses-merahjambu sbb mcm dah tak praktikal lagi wlpn byk followers...

ingat nak delete blog terus.. tapi tak mampuuuu... masih rindu untuk meluahkan rasa. 

yup, for me, thats what blog for. utk meluahkan kata yang tak dpt di ucap dgn kata-kata tapi hanya mampu di coret melalui perkataan. and of coz.. juga sebagai diary utk memori2 suka duka kehidupan as a girl. going to b a women. a wife. a mom.(insya'Allah) yg bleh di kongsi dgn pembaca. (kalu ada yg membaca laa)

oh ini lah first entry. 

patut said. WELCOME BACK! 

:)

*yea, sy suka berblog menggunakan bahasa cmpur. my english not good enough. nor my bahasa. ada ayat yg snang diguna dlm bahasa melayu, dan ada yg lg ringkas bila guna english. so excuse my bahasa rojak. ampunnn~~!!

XoXo

Eye Null

 'before you let your heart do the talking, let your brain do the editing'